This past weekend, I took a road trip down to Fresno, California for one of my best friends wedding. I made the 2000 mile round trip journey(Seattle-Fresno-Seattle) with 3 of my friends. I dont want to go into too much detail, but certain things happened between people that were fueled by Excessive drinking and immiturity by many. Ive learned that if you put a large group of people together long enough, certain people start looking for faults for no reasons at all. We started our journey back home Mid day Sunday, tired, hungover, questioning certain relationship with certain friends, and overall just in no mood for a 15 hour drive. The first 5-6 hours we spent talking about what went down, who heard what, who saw what, etc etc. It was strange for all of us, because The people I roll with, like myself, fucking hate Drama.

It was about 10 at night when we crossed The boarder to Oregon from Cali. For those of you who dont know much about this area, which Im guessing is most of you, there is pretty much nothing. Its about a 30 mile stretch where theres no towns and no lights. We pulled over off the highway onto this desolate dirt road to switch drivers. As soon as I opened my door, I saw it. Do you ever have those moments in life that you know instantly that you will remember forever? This was one of those moments. All around me were stars. Hundreds of stars. Thousands of stars. More stars in a night sky than I had ever seen before. I didnt even know a place like this existed on earth, a place where the night sky wasnt ruined with light pollution. I live in a big city where the light pollutes the air so much that you can only see a few dozen stars on any given night, and you can only see these stars if you look straight up. But not this place. The stars were all around us, they came down and touched the earth. I could see the spacial dust of distant galaxies. It really is the most amazing feeling realizing that you are not looking up at the universe, rather you are looking out at it.

We smoked a blunt and did what what most everyone would do. We told some jokes about what we were seeing and enjoyed each others sillyness. Than we smoked another blunt, and we pondered about life, the universe and these stars; stars that always seemed so hidden, yet here they were right infront of us all. Than we smoked another blunt and talked about how this moment made us feel. someone said smaller, almost insignificant. Someone said they felt spectacular, a reasurring hello from the universe telling them "hey, you really are not alone."

And then my friends asked me how I felt. I could have told them how I felt right then and there. I could have told them that I didnt choose to feel awe; it thrust down upon me and took control of all my emotions. Albert Einstein once looked at the night sky and described this feeling as a "Cosmic Religious feeling". I could have told them that at that moment, I felt like the night sky took hold of all my senses. I could see the night sky, yes, but I also felt like I could reach out and pluck a star right out of the sky. I could have said a whole lot of things, but I didnt. When my friends asked me how this moment made me feel, I just said "Just look". And we laid down in a patch of grass and looked. We didnt say words for a while, we just lay there and looked.

I dont know what the meaning of life is. I dont know what my path in life is, or yours. I dont know why certain events happened that led the moon to rotate around the earth, and the earth to rotate around the Sun. I dont know why these "paths" are completely perfect and absolutely necessary for our life on earth to exist the way it does; one inch to the left or to the right and everything may fall apart. I dont know where yesterday went, and I dont know why tomorrow is such a mystery. But I do know how to look. And someday, I hope that you leave your city behind, go somewhere you werent suppose to go, and just look. You might be surprised at what the universe is ready and willing to show you.

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Tue, 08/30/2011 - 2:43am
yoinkie Says:

I wish everyone could see what I saw. We tried taking pictures, but camara phones just dont cut it. I found this pic on the interwebs, and while it doesnt do any justice to the moment, its still something:,r:19,s:0

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 12:23pm

It amazes me some people can go through this life and never see the beauty of the sky. I first saw it in the mountains of northern Iraq, and it was a life changing experience. The last paragraph in your highdea was beautifully written

This highdea I wrote a while back pertains to the subject

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 12:48pm

dude fuck light pollution! i wish i could i always be surrounded by such a real sight. i never seen anything like that, and you probably felt first hand like you were actually in and apart of the universe. after the hurricane this past week on the east coast a lot of power was out in the city and (i live about 50 miles from the city) there was little light pollution and i noticed the stars were amazing .me and me friends just looked up and talked about the universe and life all night it was amazing. but again it was nothing like that sight.

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 3:39pm

Yo! That is amazing. It almost like all that tension (even though I have no clue what had happened) was built up for that one exact moment. I mean you guys were already contemplating life so hard by what it sounds. Then bam, SO awesome man. It was meant to be. I live in Nor Cal and am in love with the universe and its majestically wonders. If the imagery was anything close to that picture you posted, this is my next destination. How awesome would a weekend in the middle of nowhere be, with some live music, and a bunch of telescopes set up (with no light pollution, live music in the dark! ha) But really,

Tue, 08/30/2011 - 2:54am

Carl Sagan always said that we are all part of the cosmos, and the cosmos is part of us.

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 3:41pm

we are star people, created from the stars, to live amongst the stars.

Tue, 08/30/2011 - 3:06am

I totally know what you mean, i live in the central valley in California and the stars are not really very visible.
but drive about a hour and a half up into the mountains and the sky is filled with lights like someone just shook a snowglobe of glitter.

i feel you on driving through Oregon. i have family in the Seattle area and driving up to visit them, Oregon is the worst part of the drive.

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 2:13am
yoinkie Says:

Ya its not as beautiful as Washington, which is all green, and not as exciting as Cali, where you constantly see towns and stuff. But it has its glory, like this spot. Everywhere is beautiful if you look at it the right way. But Oregon cops and speed limits suck ass.

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 2:19am

i also find it very strange that is illegal to pump your own gas in Oregon and it seems like no one speeds. ever. (except for the people driving through Oregon, they all fly through to get out)

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 2:28am
yoinkie Says:

man, I felt like a sore thumb sticking out, driving 75 through their dumbass 60 speed limit. No one around you goes above 65. Its like there way of keeping people in their state as long as possible, haha.

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 2:50am

yeah man, they must be hurting hard for the tourism.

Tue, 08/30/2011 - 7:40am

ok three things
1. My friends think i'm weird cuz the thing i get most excited for when going down the beach is the stars. Nothing better than layin on the beach and looking at the stars in full force
2. I had an impossible highdea to shut down every major city once a year so everyone can see the stars without that light pollution
3. I think the fascination with the stars/universe is one of the main things that makes an interesting person. People who can live their lives with the sun and stars smaking them in the face every waking moment and ignore it and focus on their material lives are usually boring people. The curiousness of seeing the vast universe every time you look up leads to curiousness in other aspects of life.

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 2:08am
yoinkie Says:

Oh man, I wish we could do #2 so bad. I was genuinely depressed last night looking up at the night sky above my city, and only seeing a handful of stars like usual. and after seeing what I saw? Its like smoking bunk weed after smoking bud in amsterdam...just depressing.

I stare at the sky so much I almost feel like I belong up there.

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 11:13am

Yea dude going from the city to the suburbs where all the stars are visible is something special. I'm pretty sure my friends and I saw a planet and we we're completely amazed at it all.

Thu, 09/01/2011 - 2:14am

I agree overall, but

#2 is a wonderful fucking idea. This should be law everywhere.

Tue, 08/30/2011 - 9:55pm
cats Says:

Great writing as usual from yonks, I felt like I was with you guys but in a neck race and couldn't look around but just listen to you describe it to me. This year on Virginia beach I stayed out all night and watched the stars and stayed up for a 5:45 sunrise and it was the most relaxing experience I have ever been through.

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 2:11am
yoinkie Says:

Thanks kitty. I needed to write this down right away, so I can come back to it whenever I want to and relive that moment through the words I have typed describing it.

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 12:35am
Jeurgs Says:

Seeking answers.... to questions that don't exist. I feel sometimes that's the purpose of human beings. 'How to look' a whole lot goin on in those 3 words

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 2:10am
yoinkie Says:

everybody(except blind people) can look, but I feel that so many people dont know how to look. People dont understand that, at the moment your looking, is the only moment you have at that moment. That moment will never come again. Dont just look, but reallyyyy look. Embrace what you are seeing, there is no one on earth experiencing what you are experiencing.

Thu, 09/01/2011 - 3:03am

yoinkie, like always, you amaze me.
This is HighdeAlias99, if you remember me(got really in depth on your Matilda story).

And I just have to say that this type of status actually makes me happy to live in the sleepy, small, Texas
Town that I do, because I can usually see all of the stars just driving a few miles out of town, and to say the least, it is amazingly beautiful..

Keep providing amazing pieces, good sir, and i will keep reading!

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 10:32am

ahhh i've had moments like this and you just described it so beautifully & poetically. (also have you ever experienced this but with a sunset? like sitting on a mountain (or even a fire escape) and the sunset is literally just surrounding you. it's like being IN a watercolor painting.)
it's crazy how you transition from the situation in the car (petty drama) to BAM! the stars hit you and make that situation so insignificant. it puts things in perspective.
my family has a house on a lake in the adirondacks (where there is zero light pollution, just trees!) and it's great to go out on the boat at night & lay down on the deck of the boat. it's just you and the stars. and of course the water beneath you, but that adds an extra element of je-ne-sais-quoi.

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 12:17pm

this may be my favorite thing i've ever read from you! i absolutely loved it. it's moments like these that i live for... the ones that smack you in the face and remind you that there is so much beauty in the world if you just look around.

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 12:25pm
HighGuy11 Says:

this is great dude! i've had a realy similar experience actually, on a road trip with 2 good friends, driving across the mojave desert in the middle of the night. 2am, we got to where a campsite was supposed to be... and it was closed. but that's when we saw the night sky. i never even knew so many stars existed! of course we chilled there and smoked a blunt while we decided what to do. i suggested just stopping and sleeping under the stars, which we were all down for until we thought about the fact that we were in the desert with snakes and scorpions lol. we ended up just driving more. driving all the way through the desert talking about life & what not. as soon as we saw a hint of sun on the horizon, we passed a sign that said "Grand Canyon 1 mile" and we knew what we had to do. everything happens for a reason. the campsite was closed so we would drive through the night and make it to the Grand Canyon just in time for sunrise. and then we smoked a victory blunt over the grand canyon at sunrise. it really was one of those moments i'll never forget

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 12:31pm

I live in a small town in NY, where there is hardly any cars at night and you can walk the main strip without any concern.
I live around trees and grass and animals and all types of nature.
I live somewhere that street lights don't exist, somewhere that no one ever heard of and if you blink an eye, you'll miss the entire town. 20 miles this way, and there is nothing, 20 miles the other way, still nothing.
It sounds like it would be boring, and trust me, it has it's moments,
but you know what is best about it?
I've seen this night, I've seen these stars my entire life. And I truly appreciate it.

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 12:35pm

Finally a genuine highdea, one of the best I've read actually and i was the 40th up vote. One Love

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 1:10pm
Smithhy Says:

I've always been amazed by the night sky, but it's only in the past year that I've really learned about what the fuck I'm looking at. Now it's goddamn awe-inspiring and freaky at the same time. All that stuff out there exists. It doesn't exist in our own lives, but it's still out there and it exists. Sucks cuz it's like having neighbors, but they all live a trillion miles away and you're locked inside your house anyways.

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 2:28pm

Thats exactly where i live! About an hour south of the Oregon border and you are totally right, you can actually see the dust in the Milky Way, it is absolutely incredible!

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 2:31pm

ya man thats how a lot of southern oregon is, not too many big towns so you can see so many stars its just mind blowing

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 2:32pm

I'm inspired to go on a roadtrip to Canada (I'm in Michigan) to actually see the stars. Thanks Yoinkie

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 2:35pm
mmbud Says:

"just look" is probably the best advice you could give a kid growing up trying to adjust to the "real world." if more people chilled out, stepped back, and just looked at everything....I dunno...i feel like something good would come out of it.

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 3:02pm
GawD Says:

Thank you for this.. it was a wonderful and inspiring read.. im from Mississippi so i was able to see the night sky every night from where i lived.. Now i live in Atlanta and there is no night sky here...

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 3:50pm
perfs Says:

just beautiful.
thank you for sharing this :]

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 4:47pm
MykeJones Says:

Thank you for that. Just the way you described this event was awe-inspiring. I wish more people could see the way you did at that moment. Thanks again for sharing this. So much.

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 5:28pm

I havent lived for very long, ive got my life ahead of me, but already ive had times that i look back on now, and that exactly what i needed to do.
Just Look.
everyone gets so caught up in media, worrying about what people think and other things,
even i do,
but we all just need to stop and look around at life.
I remember reading a thing once and it said,
at 10 i was dying to be a teeneager
at 13 i was dying to drive,
at 16 i was dying to be an adult, and graduate, and go to college.
at 18 i was dying to be able to drink,
at 21 i was dying to finish college, and grad school
at 30 i was dying to get married,
at 45 i was dying to have kids,
at 20 years later, and i have an incurable disease,
and now im dying. and i wish i could go back, and live.
and the notation after this said that if you didnt understand, its ok,
but i understood, and its hard to just live,
you get caught up in everything else,
but thats what everyone needs to do.
And Live.

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 5:31pm
Furby Says:
Wed, 08/31/2011 - 6:13pm

if the earth was all natural, we could see significantly better during the night :P

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 7:03pm
Jimmee Says:

Reading this almost made me cry. You've had so many amazing experiences and you see so much wherever you go. I don't mean physically, I mean you can see past everything and really take in the experience for all that it's worth. Everything about you that I have read has made me look up to you more and more. I wish I could be like you. I wish there were more people in the world who were like you.

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 7:34pm
Ohthatguy Says:

Thank you for posting this so much. I have experienced this kind of situation before and its always impossibly hard (not to mention embarrassing depending on the type of people you are with at the time) to relate the feelings that such a view conjures up. You on the other hand just described it beautifully

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 8:24pm
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Wed, 08/31/2011 - 10:47pm
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Thu, 09/01/2011 - 3:17am

The only time I can remember seeing a sky anything like that was like seeing a picture of home. I don't even think that describes it.

Sun, 09/11/2011 - 6:04pm
hazey_days Says:

this is such a beautiful story. i almost cried reading it... in a good way

Sun, 09/25/2011 - 12:35am
austin93 Says:
Mon, 09/26/2011 - 11:10pm
h2jo Says:
Tue, 09/27/2011 - 1:38pm

just think, the romans and the people of ancient times... saw this every night. There was no "global warming", polution of any sort.. this is where renissance writing and appreciation for the world came from. Now we are trapped in our little citys and lights hiding from the awe inspiring world that is above, below, and around us.

Sun, 12/25/2011 - 2:33am

Wow that is a sight and a half, living in a small town i get a pretty good night sky but that picture is beyond belief. I really don't think there is anything better than to look at a clear sky at night.