Sooo guys, I didn't make the Top 25 in the Hopsin contest but that is fine by me because the exposure I got and the fans I've gained has been well worth it already. I appreciate every single bit of support you guys gave me because without your help, I wouldn't be anywhere. Stay tuned because I promise there is more to come! Here are some links if you wanna follow me around or check my shit out:

http://www.facebook.com/KillaCamSGBH
http://www.facebook.com/camron.jackman
Contest Video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=esFn5LD98LQ
Duke Westlake Cypher:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ozwQa5MWsWQ
NEW Jokerr Diss (another contest):
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A_tMsE2XAh0
NEW Random Bars:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yc-F3BCBgWs
NEW Alpha Cypher:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SfAGLbw3HQg

I saw a chihuahua get hit by a car today. I felt terrible. I was in the middle lane of a 3 lane street when it happened. The car to my left and slightly ahead of me slammed it's brakes on and the dog stopped right in front of it. So I slam my brakes on too so he can cross the rest of the street, but a taxi behind me to my right was just going too fast to be able to stop, although he did try. I didn't know what to do, I couldn't get out and perform CPR on this dog. I didn't have an animal emergency number to call. The dog just kinda laid there, presumably dying from internal injuries. It's a sad thing to see a being die. I've been trying my best lately to not kill things because the universe is one, so I'm really just killing myself.

This brings me to another point, speed limits. How many times have you been racing to work or school because you are late and you seem to hit EVERY FUCKING red light? This is because you are not following the speed limit. The saying goes that rules are meant to be broken, but I do believe that some should be followed. Had that taxi driver been going the speed limit, he would've had time to stop for that dog. Driving is when I realize a shit ton of things about life. In everything you do, you should be time efficient. Never waste time. Speed limits are given in order to keep people time efficient but to also practice patience. Growing up, I struggled with patience. I want it NOW. But now is not the time for everything. Lights are programmed to change at certain time intervals, correspondent with the speed limit of the area. I used to be the speedy driver, just tearin shit up whenever I could. Until I realized how pointless it was and how inefficient speeding is. "Why are we all racing towards a stop sign?" I heard that somewhere but I can't remember where, but credit to whoever made it up, I love you.

I am currently reading the Alchemist and it is amazing how it is speaking to me. I started reading this at the same time I started the contest, and the book related perfectly to my situation. All about finding your "Personal Legend" and chasing your dream. It talked about "beginner's luck" and how "when a person truly wants something, the entire universe conspires together to help them achieve it." At this same time, my video was blowing up quite a bit and I was having a lot of fortune. It was all so perfect. I got caught up in the contest and stopped reading for a few days or so until the top 25 was announced, which I didn't make. So I thought to myself "Alright time to grind harder." And I just started trying to force myself to write a bunch and rush and do all this shit but it just didn't feel right. So I decided to read my book instead and it spoke to me in words that just consumed my being:

"The closer he got to the realization of his dream, the more difficult things became. It seemed as if what the old king had called "beginner's luck" were no longer functioning. In his pursuit of the dream, he was being constantly subjected to tests of his persistence and courage. So he could not be hasty, nor impatient. If he pushed forward impulsively, he would fail to see the signs and omens left by _____ along his path."

I left that spot blank because it says "God" in the book, but that can be replaced with whatever you believe in. There was a reason I went a few days without reading. I read these words right when I needed to read them.

I love all you guys and I can't wait for the day we can all get that island and smoke some doobs together. Peace be with you, live long and prosper, knibb high football rules, and stay classy San Diego.

Great song with a greater message:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k0Vp-RhB6fw

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Comments

 
Wed, 02/15/2012 - 1:42am
Muncheels Says:

Although i enjoyed this highdea a lot the second i saw the waterboy reference i immediately upvoted. Just because the water boys a cheater doesn't mean we can't kick some cougar ass! MUD DOGS MUD DOGS MUD DOGS!

 
 
Wed, 02/15/2012 - 12:29pm
CamBam. Says:

Close.. but it was a Billy Madison reference! Someone needs to brush up on their classic Adam Sandler history.

 
 
Wed, 02/15/2012 - 12:35pm
Muncheels Says:

Wow you're right im so ashamed. I quote the waterboy and billy madison all day long with my friends...he called the shit poop

 
 
Sat, 03/31/2012 - 9:23pm

wrong reference or not... MUD DOGS MUD DOGS MUD DOGS

 
 
Wed, 02/15/2012 - 2:09am

Woah.

I used to be the speedy yet cautious driver as well, I would usually be that guy caculating speed and distance while driving so I can to my destination faster. I would always ask myself this question: Why am I speeding? Why am I in such a rush? Why do people speed? Why are they in such a rush? What's with people and performance cars? Why must one feel the need to speed down a highway to attract pedestrians and policemen? Why do they find thrill in this? Why do people cut each other off? Why are we such slaves to this 9-5 cycle? And so on...

 
 
Wed, 02/15/2012 - 6:46pm
ninjatoker Says:

yo if it wasent for you i wouldent eaven know who hopsin is

 
 
Thu, 02/16/2012 - 2:33am

I am a firm believer in "things happen for a reason." Set-backs are what really bring different sides of people out. If you have the passion, persistence, and motivation to keep going, even when things don't turn out quite how you wanted, that is what is going to make the strong, even stronger. Without ever failing, just not doing as well, or getting as far as you would have liked, you would never know the true value of accomplishment. Strong people keep working. strong people have an incentive to become even better than they were the first time around.

I know what you mean about speed limits! I never go more than 5 miles over the limit. Mainly because with my luck, the moment I do, there will be a cop hiding at that exact moment, waiting for me to come by. But also, I don't ever want to be that reckless driver you hear about on the news who was speeding and caused an accident. The value of your life is greater than the mere seconds you MIGHT save by weaving in and out of traffic.

 
 
Thu, 02/16/2012 - 2:29pm

1.) sorry to hear about the contest man, you definitely deserved to make it, but keep grinding and something even better will come along.
"it's the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting."
2.) the jokerr diss is niice. Saw it on fb yesterday or two days ago, but had no idea what it was about really. Thought you had a beef with some rapper named jokerr. Now I see it's a contest.

 
 
Fri, 02/17/2012 - 1:39am
pants Says:

This is so great. And a Billy Madison reference too :') so proud haha

 
 
Fri, 02/17/2012 - 3:35am
CamBam. Says:

Oh pants, where have you been all my life.

 
 
Thu, 02/23/2012 - 5:34am

Man I feel ya with the whole chihuahua situation. That shit sucks seein such an innocent animal die..and your rhymes are fuckin tight I've been looking for more of your stuff. If you come out with anything else post it in highdeas so we can all see it

 
 
Fri, 02/24/2012 - 1:52am
CamBam. Says:
 
 
Fri, 02/24/2012 - 4:12pm

I guarantee that if you stick with it, you are going places man.

 
 
Mon, 02/27/2012 - 2:51am

I have much love for you Cam.
You are very wise, with words as well!
Stay persistent, stay conscious, stay divine.
May the universe be with you, as with us all.

 
 
Sat, 03/31/2012 - 9:00pm
nurplette Says:

"I've been trying my best lately to not kill things because the universe is one, so I'm really just killing myself."

The universe is one, so death is not just death, it is also rebirth.

 
 
Sun, 04/01/2012 - 10:51am

i was expecting some whack little kid rapping, but i'm genuinely impressed. props dude.

 
 
Sun, 04/01/2012 - 2:24pm
Locifer Says:

I was laughing cuz your lyricism is incredible! Keep at it man, I'm gonna download some of your stuff off youtube to my phone and bump it loud!

 
 
Sat, 04/14/2012 - 7:49pm

I noticed that about driving. I'll see some guy in some pimped out Subaru speed past, and then in about a minute I pull up next to him at the same light. It's pointless really, now I see why my dad drives so slow. But I still speed on twisty roads and such other fun places. It's awesome