Do you ever feel like something is missing in your life? No, not the "im sad, im feeling depressed" feeling either. Im talking about the missing piece. Im talking about the Variable X.

When I was a kid, I knew that my life goal was to become succesful. But I didnt know what that really meant at all. I was taught that one day, my life will need to be successful. I was raised that way, not only but my parents, but by school, by books, by TV, by everything. And what does success really mean? It means a whole lot of things, but to society, it =money

the corruptable mind of a child + working hard to become successful = X

Go to any college around the country and you might read a sign along the lines of "Welcome to ___ college. We our build futures." Why is it that I never see signs in highschools that say "Welcome to ___ Highschool. We will try and find you a career you enjoy, instead of wasting your time with useless shit you will never use." How many of us really knew what we wanted to be after high school? Not a lot im guessing. And how long were we given a chance to decided our career, our future, before we had to decide on a college? 3 months? Thank you high school, for nothing. And hello College, I dont know much about Business management at all(because my high school never cared to teach me much about business) but I guess ill devote 4 years of my life and $90,000. When I was a kid, I thought after college, your profesor would walk you over to a place of employment and help you start your career. "you have completed your college degree! Now as we promised, we will help you find a job and career that you will love!!" Haha, children can be so stupid.

5 years at high school + 4(or more) years at college = A career... er, nevermind:

5 wasted years at high school + 4(or more) years at college = X(AKA go find your own damn job)

Ahhh, love. We learn about it early dont we? I remember watching Disney cartoons where the prince finds his princess, they get married and live happily ever after. "You will find her easily, and she will complete you."

Man + Women = Happy life

Beautiful isnt it? Too bad it couldnt be furthur from the truth. You will look, and you will find many women(men, if your a girl. Or whatever floats your boat, really). Many will reject you. A few will accept you. Once they accept you, many will make your life worse foryou for no reason. They may cheat on you, they may yell at you, they may try and change everything about you. Enjoy the infatuation phase, because theres a damn good chance that once its over, you two are over. The current divorce rate in America is around 48%. one out of every two marriages fail. What is wrong with us? No seriously, whatthe FUCK is wrong with us? Love is the purest, greatest thing in the world, yet we abuse it, take it for advantage, and desert it when it treats us poorly. You treat your spouse like shit? Guess what, your kids are watching. What morals do you think they are growing up with? WILL SOMEONE PLEASE THINK OF THE CHILDREN?!

Man + Woman = X(but most of you wont find X. And if you do find X, your probably going to lose X. If you are one of the lucky ones who think they have X, by golly hold on to it as tight as you can, you lucky SOB)

14 billion years ago, the universe was created. 15-30 years ago, you were created. But you really werent created then; your creation has been taking place for 14 billion years. Everything that has happened needed to happen for your creation, EXACTLY the way it happened. Or you wont be here. Sounds awesome right? Makes you feel special? Like your meant for something...great? Well than explain to me, sir, why the asshole down the street from me is alive? Why are their murderers, rapists, pedo's, and mother fucking every kind of dirty scumbag in the world alive? There creation took 14 billion years too. They are just as special as you. There are more people out there doing bad than good right now. The largest majority of people are neutral; not doing anything at all. It took 14 billion years to create us, and this is what we are:

Assholes + genuinely good people + people living neutral lives = X

Do you have goals? I have goals. Have you ever reached a goal? What happens? You feel great; you achieved what you set out to achieve. And than what? You create another goal. and so on, and so fourth. There is no status quo; there is no end game. Humans must evolve. There must ALWAYS be a next goal. So go out there, and achieve your goal. But beware, dont celebrate your achieving too much: People might think your gloating. And dont under-celebrate it either: people might think you dontgiveashit. Celebrate it just right, and for the exact right amount of time. And then, move the fuck on...thats what society tells you, anyway. Why? Why must we live like this? What happens when you have achieved everything you want in life? What if, we as a human race, achieve everything? What if we reach a point in our history where we have created everything, thought of every idea, and had every conversation? Is that possible? NO its not! havent you been listening? There is no end game. We must evolve; thats what we do.

I often look at animals, and wonder how they live such happy lives, when most of them dont have any goals at all. Eat, fuck, sleep and survive...those 4 goals drive 99.99% of the species on earth.

X(the begining of it all) + X(our existence now) = X(our future) Pretty shitty formula for this one, huh?

I bet your sitting there looking for some sort of conclusion to this, arent you? "wheres the connections?" "What does it all mean?" "Where are we going? Where are we from?"

Well Ill give you a conclusion, and I bet your going to love it:

I got stoned + I wrote this =

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Thu, 08/25/2011 - 10:03am


Tue, 08/23/2011 - 1:15am
yoinkie Says:

= X

Sorry if this was a bloody depressing read. The world is a depressing place, and sometimes my thoughts can be too.

Tue, 08/23/2011 - 2:57am

Man your head's definitely in the right place, it was a completely accurate write of exactly what's going on right now. The thing about right now is people care way more about the "what" than the "why". Peoples expectations are coming from a culture that continuously reinforces the notion that we need "all this new and less shitty stuff" all the goddamn time. Spend, indulge, and then feel better, but whatever you do follow the way things are supposed to work. Now because that's what most people have done for the last 3 generations or so, is follow that procedure, hardly anyone knows what's really important anymore. It's a faulty system to raise people in that's being perpetuated. It needs to stop and we ALL need to take a step back, figure out what's really important, and work towards it.
I know though, it gets to my head sometimes too.

Wed, 08/24/2011 - 1:51pm
yoinkie Says:

Every morning I go and get coffee, its the first thing I do. While waiting for it to be made, I always read the headlines on the rack of newspapers that is sitting there. This world, is such a damn depressing place right now. We live in America, so we are mostly dealing with the economic downfall. But the rest of the world suffers in much worse ways than that as well. We do too, its not like the economy is Americas only problem.

also, I messed up on one of the formulas. The one about assholes in the world should have read like this:

.30assholes + .1Genuine good people + .6people who are neutral and do nothing = 100%of human population. Sad thing is, that 10% good people is being optomistic.

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 10:41am
cheifntoke Says:

Dude that was amazing,
at least there still people out there that understand this

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 1:45pm

My essay prompt when applying to U of Chicago was simply "Find x." The whole time I was reading this I thought it was someone that had just applied to college, but of course it was you. I was really proud of my essay actually. They said "find x" and I said "no" and then proceeded through stream of consciousness to take into consideration all of the things x could be. Totally message me on the off chance you're interested, I love constructive criticism. Oh, and great highdea.

Tue, 08/23/2011 - 8:14am

Hey man, a lot of people need to hear this type of stuff regardless of it being depressing or not. I know exactly what you mean and probably how you feel on the inside too. This shit is getting ridiculous and it has been for way too long. I don't want to go into too much detail here, this comment could turn out to be pages. So in turn I leave you with a line from Atmosphere:

"My neighbors ain't doin' much better
And we makin' competition instead of stickin' together
Can't save no nest egg, in fact this nest is rented
In fact that rent is late, wait..."

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 3:45am
SkylarL Says:

Guarantees is one of my favorite songs in the world.

Yoinkie i agree with everything you say man.. I'm honestly scared to try to live and make it in the world more than i am scared of death. That's because i really dont want to follow paths that people tell me to, i don't want to have to fit into some mold to be accepted and "successful" in life. I just don't know what's gonna happen, honestly is what bothers me. Looks like i'm just going to have to find out.

I continue this lyrical trend

Maybe we’ll evolve to a point where
Fear as an experience is no longer instinctual
But rather an emotion we use to enrich our understanding of
Why our human ancestors killed each other when they could have loved each other
One day we’ll be holding hands instead of grudges
We’ll eliminate our territorial circuits and know what love is
One day we’ll be holding hands instead of M-16s
Until then every human being is controlled by the fight

Wed, 08/24/2011 - 12:59pm
AllLitUp Says:

High school is all about repetition and memorizing facts. There is no true education or inspiration.
It seemed like every single year in high school the teacher always said "Come on guys, this is review. You should know this". And I would just think to myself, when the hell are we gonna learn something new?

Sun, 08/28/2011 - 10:33pm
bowlski Says:

i disagree. i have definitely had some teachers who inspired me. i had a teacher who said to me "if there is anything that i want you to take away from this class, its to do something that you love to do"
those words definitely stuck with me. its really all about if the teacher who is teaching it has passion

Tue, 08/23/2011 - 9:30pm
Tue, 08/23/2011 - 10:15pm

And society sees this kind of thinking as detrimental. Why? Questioning institutions widely taken as "the way it is" is fundamental to the advancement of the race. We should be working toward goals on a global level, trying to better the life of the RACE rather than spend a life time devoted to accumulating so called "wealth" and making a single life comfortable. This wasn't depressing to me, more inspirational, especially in the conclusion. There are no definitive answers, seek truth within yourself and there will always be a goal.

Wed, 08/24/2011 - 12:44am

Whoa, this is such a change of pace for you yoinkie. Normally all of your highdeas end with an uplifting message, something for me to walk away with and apply to life. Not that this isn't a good highdea, as everything you pointed out is 100% true. But, don't let the world get to you man. Don't let someone else tell you what success is. As long as you're happy with where you are, then you're successful. And don't worry about the bad times. We need them so we can enjoy the good times more (Butters once taught me that). It's just as much our world as it is the people's who try to take it away from us.

Wed, 08/24/2011 - 1:03am
pants Says:

To me, that feeling of something missing is uncertainty or doubt that is created by looking at life as though there is one path we're meant to follow. I think one of the greatest injustices we do to children is imposing conventions on them and giving them the impression that there is a standard to follow. It completely limits the human experience. Thinking that there is a way to have a "perfect" life or that you need to be working towards something just makes people feel depressed when they don't achieve a perfect lifestyle.
The variability of X is what makes life interesting. Maybe people would be happier if they were less afraid of uncertainty, and instead look forward to where life's going to take them. But it's pretty much human nature to be afraid. Of everything. So I don't really see that happening.

Wed, 08/24/2011 - 1:46pm
yoinkie Says:

yes, pants, YES!! X is like (i really hate to do it but I must) unobtainium from the movie avatar. Its something that you always strive for and try to achieve, but it always stays one step away from you. X is the carrot hanging on a string in front of your face, and you are the donkey. You keep following it, but it keeps progressing too.

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 4:40am

You just summed up my life with this comment. Always afraid my life will not go according to plan because I'm SUPPOSED to do it a certain way.

I wish I wasn't scared to step out of the boundaries I've been set in by myself and others

Sat, 08/27/2011 - 6:19pm
khighle™ Says:

i don't like spamming but i wrote a highdea similar to this the other day and i thought it was relevant

Wed, 08/24/2011 - 1:58am
Tazzo Says:
Wed, 08/24/2011 - 11:01pm

i wish i was simplistic enough to have the goals and ambitions of our animal brethren...oh how glorious those four tasks are.

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 12:11am
Thu, 08/25/2011 - 5:22am
MoLTReZ Says:

love you yoinkie

i could write a whole page about how your right and my view points of it. but i think this is better

you are so right man

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 5:56am

Society is a game dude. School is no longer education, its just a guide.
Not even as learning shit either, but learning society subconsciously.

Either play their game and be the smartest, do whats fun and be the best at it, or find a girl to love and hold it tightly
Some people think its just a road you choose. but the best road is to know you can do all three, just takes a while for a person to realize theres no boundaries

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 10:17am
U.S.Blues Says:
Thu, 08/25/2011 - 10:46am
Smithhy Says:

Damn dude, I like the way you think. A lot of these ideas have drifted through my head time and time again as well, and yeah it's depressing when you feel like so much of what you've been raised to believe is a shallow lie, but to me its also very enlightening. You feel like you have a better picture of the machinery of the world you live in, so you can stand back and analyze how it's working, and better deal with what it tries to offer you.

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 11:05am
BonJagger Says:

I've thought of this kind of stuff alot, but damn the way you wrote is just fuckin inspiring!

About the animals, they don't necessarily have happy carefree lives. It's just because we as humans see them as inferior to us so we think that they don't have any goals or any worries or any INTELLECT beyong staying alive. Honestly, I know that dogs have way more intelligence than the fuckin scientists would have us believe. My dog knows how to open doors and pop the lid on his treat bucket purely from watching us do it. And he's plainly a shy dog because he always puts his ears down and looks away when around other dogs. What does this mean? Perhaps dogs, or all animals, have social stigmas that they look after, that being the main reason why OUR society is so fucked up. We're always worried, embarrassed, or jealous of the other individual, mainly because our media tells us to be. Our social lives are our lives in general. Even college degrees are mainly there for our social prestige. For example: my friend, a highschool graduate and a whiz in computer programming, applied for a programming job. Right when he was about to get the job, a kid who had a fuckin HISTORY degree from college swooped in and stole the job right out from under him. How fucked up is that? The kid who is CLEARLY smarter gets screwed because some other kid has a random college degree. It just goes to show that college doesn't mean SHIT in the way of education. It's just there to show just there to show prestige, and employers ALWAYS choose prestige over smarts.

Sorry, I'm bad at writing conclusions, especially when I'm high. Have a good day you guys!

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 7:39pm
miikol Says:

a college degree doesn't just show that a person has knowledge in a subject. It shows dedication and how persistent a person can be among other things. How do you know the other person isn't just as good as your friend, or even better? Your friend might be better, but still that dude with the degree has worked his ass off as well and has documentation to prove it.

Fri, 10/07/2011 - 3:33pm
Slayer Says:

"Your friend might be better, but still that dude with the degree has worked his ass off as well and has documentation to prove it."

^--- ... And that sucks.

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 11:10am

Yuuuup, I really liked this. So true!

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 12:20pm

I really like this. To try to add another angle to it: I think resolving X is ultimately death, it sounds depressing but it makes sense to me. X is this feeling you have that at some point, maybe before you were even born, everything was perfect and you want to feel that way again. This is why the story of the Garden of Eden exists and why people believe in heaven. Death is retracting from this physical world, letting go of our egos and sense of self, where all our hopes and desires (and all our disappointments) lay. People are terrified of death, and that's why subconsciously we cling to X. Fear of death is what keeps every species moving forward when it comes down to it. When a society (or person) becomes obsessed with filling that void yet denying the fact that it too will die it becomes sick and twisted. I hope this made sense...

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 12:38pm
zazazayou Says:

Nicely done dude, u lay it all out so much nicer than how it looks in my head ;)

btw i recently spent a good 6 weeks backpacking in the sierras, it answered X for me quite nicely.
Idunno how to put the answer in words but it always comes with lots of aimless laughter.

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 12:41pm
.....hi Says:

i love you. i feel the exact same way in every sense. even down to just starting college.. my major is business management as well. at purdue. who knows what the fuck i wanna do with it but ive been taught my whole life that its a good idea and it will make money which will make me happy. hmmmmph bullshit.

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 1:22pm

You definitely tell it like it is man! It's sad but true!

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 1:26pm

This reminds me of the quote from Fight Club when Brad Pitt is saying something along the lines of "the media tells us we can all be rich CEOs and rockstars and we are slowly learning that we can't, and we are very very pissed off" I can't remember the exact quote, but that's how I felt about this post.

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 1:44pm

i like it, id rather hear an ugly truth than live a beautiful lie.

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 1:44pm

Man this really touched me in the sense i have been almost thinking the exact same thing for years now and wondering why all these people don't realize it. It's almost like how can you be so vague to believe everything these corrupt minds taught you, i learned from a young age that their is something wrong with the people in this world and i'm sure plenty of you have to. We need to evolve but in a way that will benefit our kind as a race (humans), we need to learn from animals instead of trapping or killing mass majority of them let what was free BE FREE. And i believe not only they should be set free but us to...this world has come to a crazy place and we need to start something to help change it for the better.

p.s I also am pretty lit right now ;)

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 2:49pm
Shifted Says:

This is completely amazing. And just something I've actually been looking for. Would you mind if I had a friend read this whilst I record it and turn it into a dubstep track? It would be a simple track with this information just read throughout it. It would be like FuntCase - 50 Caliber. Except it would be with this.

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 4:08pm
Thu, 08/25/2011 - 4:33pm
Claxton420 Says:
Thu, 08/25/2011 - 5:03pm
jake_ Says:

I guess there's a different way of looking at it too. Of course theres something missing in your life. Theres something missing in everyones' lives! It's because that's what seperates us from animals who eat, fuck, sleep, and survive. We humans are never satisfied with whats given to us. Do you ever wonder why many spoiled kids of insanely rich, hardworking parents grow up to be slackers of society? Because they were raised accustomed to having everything they wanted. So they began to stop wanting to work hard, they lost their thirst for knowledge. But back to the point. We're never satisfied, yet at the same time we are filled with incredible potential. We can do so many things with our lives. You, yoinkie, can enroll in nursing school and save someone's life 5 years from now. Literally, save their lives. The great thing about living in America is that you are able to pursue your goals. Imagine if you lived in Libya right now; people there dont even consider reaching their goals because they know its impossible. So the best I can say is, find something you are truly passionate about, and set out to accomplish it.

Also check this out:

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 5:04pm

This one post right here teaches you more about life than years of school can, and it only took me like 10 minutes to read
(blazed= slow reading lol)

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 6:03pm
Thu, 08/25/2011 - 9:59pm

I can't begin to tell you how much you took the thoughts out of my brain. I've been thinking about this for years. It's sad. But every single sentence is true. Everything you wrote makes a ridiculous amount of sense and I encourage everyone to read this. I can't believe someone has hit on this in much of the same fashion I would have written it myself. Props to you sir for realizing the world as it is.

Thu, 08/25/2011 - 10:24pm

i think it's just everyone wants more than what they have, nobodies ever satisfied with what they have. :/ it's kinda sad.

Wed, 08/31/2011 - 1:34pm

Dude, you should consider writing a book :) I would buy it!! I completely agree with you and I Fuckin hate that people, even I sometimes, choose to keep living this way simply because we must :/ ... so write a book or something, get your message(s) out to everyone and let's hope for the best

Tue, 11/29/2011 - 7:06pm
Jeebers420 Says:

Absolutely true when i got out of High School I had no fucking idea what I was doing. The major I wanted to go for after all those dumb ass aptitude tests in school just didnt seem like something id want to do. Hell i still dont exactly know what i want to do and i know im no where near finding that perfect girl. And there is way too many fucked up people in this world. So i can understand why you would find it hard not to write something deppressing from time to time i have the same problem. But sometimes i think you just have to go with the flow dont belive all the things from the schools or the girl that breaks your heart or the pedophile that just womt stay away from the damn park an find out what YOU need to be happy not what society says you need. Go out and try things and discover for yourself cause hey that's what lifes for. X= happiness and happiness is what u make it