I do not fully know or have a completely accepted belief on what happens after death. I tend to lean more towards a Buddhist view of the afterlife, it seems life and the spiritual aspect of living is too precious and complex to just vaporize after our expiration, but maybe I am giving too much credit where credit is not due. Maybe my mind will not let me accept that there is nothing.

It is impossible to wrap a head around the idea of being dead for an infinite amount of time. Every night I go to sleep and wake up about 8 hours later, that 8 hours can pass in the blink of an eye if I cannot recall any dreams or it can go by in what feels like a lifetime if I experienced a complex dream. The 'perspective time' (or the elapsed time that we experience and feel) of unconsciousness is something that constantly changes.

Before I was born, more time had passed than I can comprehend. The Big Bang all the way through March 22, 1987 happened and I am completely unaware of this time. In my mind this period of time does not exist because I did not exist. I can't even say it went by in the blink of an eye because that is putting a measurement of time on something that has an initial reference mark. This is not like sleep where I have a marker point that I can measure 'perspective time' from, like the exact moment I went to sleep; we are talking about something un-measureable here. There is no beginning of when I was not born, I was just not born.

Here is the hard part for me to grasp: about 14.6 billion years passed before I was alive and my mental history only goes back to memories of about 4 years old (puts me roughly in the year 1990). Nothing but a void occurs before 1990, time did not exist for me before 1990, is this what it will be like after I pass away? Will my consciousness and inner being vaporize to nothing and there will be nothing, not even time after I die?

It is the hardest task I have put on my mind since I have been born; to try and comprehend the nothingness of the afterlife (if that is what actually happens). We all have been through it before, like I said, about 14.6 billion years passed and we never felt the time passing for even an instance. We are born and thrown into a snippet of time, we feel and watch time pass for what is only an insignificant measurement in the total age of the universe, and then we are pulled back out of it. We are subjected to the nothingness of what it was like before we were born again, but it is irresponsible for me to say 'we are subjected' because there is no 'we' anymore, there is nothing and the concept of 'nothing' is too heavy for my mind to digest. How can my consciousness not exist for the rest of eternity if all I have ever known is the consciousness I use on a day to day basis?

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Tue, 07/12/2011 - 1:19pm

This is what true Highdeas are made of. Take notes, people.

 
 
Fri, 09/23/2011 - 10:47am

I respect this highdea because he is simply thinking out loud. He isn't trying to persuade or say the he has it all figured out. He is accepting not knowing and not trying to tell others that they are wrong. Great stuff man

 
 
Tue, 07/12/2011 - 1:19pm

ill be the first to upvote that shit man! dude this is how i look at everything maybe itll help you seriously just read this sentence.... were are all simple souls, having a human experience... the person who thinks like you and your conscience that is what doesnt die and when u die its just like before you were born. white nothingness

 
 
Wed, 07/13/2011 - 9:17am

I like your comment but I have a slight problem with it. You say 'white nothingness' and that is where I keep running into a mental block. How could there be white nothingness if you are no longer concious? There is not even a color to the nothingness and you have no way of comprehending that there is nothing. You are nothing.

If we cease to exist once we die, that is it, end of story. There is no more lingering on in the afterlife and the rest of eternity will go by instantaneously. If you were to somehow measure the elapsed time once you die, it would be like the second you actually stop existing, the end of eternity would be the next event you went through. The time inbetween the two events of you dying and the end of eternity would happen simultaneously; just like it did for you between the times of the Big Bang and the moment you were born.

Hopefully you understand what I am trying to say here. I can see the pictures so clearly in my head but getting them out onto a keyboard is near impossible. It is like trying to describe what an emotion feels like, there are no words that dictate the feeling, all you have to work with is just the word for the emotion and a hope that the person you are talking to has felt it before.

 
 
Wed, 08/10/2011 - 11:31pm

sum children supposedly remember their past lives i personally feel we are infinite spiritually

 
 
Sun, 09/25/2011 - 1:14pm
way-happy Says:

my mother says that when i was little i used to say "When I was a grown up..." and talk about my children and wife. Pretty trippy uh?

 
 
Thu, 08/11/2011 - 3:08pm
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Tue, 08/23/2011 - 9:15pm
C.F.L.B. Says:

You sir have blown my mind a hundred times over if i could upvote infinitely i would because everyone deserves to see this..... extreme props man

 
 
Tue, 09/20/2011 - 12:47am
scharbel Says:

This is exactly why I really, really, really, hope reincarnation is true. I know if we descend into nothingness we won't know the difference, really, but... that's so boring. Haha.

 
 
Thu, 09/22/2011 - 11:17pm

Dude i dig you man completely. And my personal belief is that we always existed in one form or another, even though we don't remember anything else, and that we always will. Serious heavy thinking though, bro.

 
 
Fri, 09/23/2011 - 6:14am
CamBam. Says:

I totally agree man, that freaks me out. Like how do you experience nothing!? Do we just float around in an empty black space forever? Thats another hard concept for me to grasp. Forever. That means it never ends. Wtf man why is stuff so confusing. We cant just be in nothingness forever, it just wouldnt be right. But we wouldnt even know if it was happening cuz it would be nothing. And that nothing would last forever. Man, shit is crazy.

 
 
Fri, 09/23/2011 - 6:37am

Of all the reasearch i've done the quote that sticks out in my mind is "all that i know is that i know nothing" Since I can make no logical conclusions of the many questions of the universe i have I try (emphasis on try) to delude myself. Many do it with religion but I just invent my own theories to cope with unaswerable questions. I've delt with this issue before and came up with "I am the universe" (sounds concieted right?) basically this universe was created just for me and everything that happened had to happen and has lead up to this moment in my life. When i'm gone this universe will be gone and IF I come back a new one will take it's place. Everthing I wasn't here to witness is directly connected to me for it hapened in my universe and without me everything would just be a cloud of hydrogen (or whatever gas is in an anti-universe

 
 
Fri, 09/23/2011 - 10:28am

Yes, and I will reiterate with another Yes. Everything is here for me and I am the universe. The beauty in this is that no one can deny it. Maybe I am not even real and in your universe, your brain, there is a fictional person named guitarjamman that has been created to help you in some way, shape, or form. When you are walking outside and the wind blows your hair a certain way, that wind was meant for you and only you; everyone else who you saw feel the wind was only so YOU can better experience it, connecting more of the 5 senses together to create the total package.

Did the universe exist before you were born? Probably, but I can't say it with 100% surety. A baby is born with a mind already loaded with information. If it hurts, get away or cry. Breathing, it will just happen. That driver was already loaded in their mind while they were developing. How to move their arms and legs (maybe not perfectly yet but they surely can move). Who is to say the universe came about the instant you were born, already preloaded with a history to suit the life you will live? The ancient romans never existed, their artifacts were just placed here in your toy-room called the world by someone else.

It is a long stretch but hey, that is the fun in it.

 
 
Fri, 09/23/2011 - 2:24pm

"The ancient romans never existed, their artifacts were just placed here in your toy-room called the world by someone else." I talked about this on here before but that's basically a belief I had way back in elementary school. I thought it was just really selfish but I went as far as to think anything that I couldn't see didn't exsist. Even say i'm looking strait foward, if I turn 180 the things i was supposedly looking at all just either dissapear or stop. Any noise coming from behind me is just to convince me this experience of "life" is real.

 
 
Fri, 09/23/2011 - 8:26am
jnouelle Says:

Google The Egg and read it.
Sorry if you all have already read it! I just thought it was fascinating!

 
 
Fri, 09/23/2011 - 6:39pm

Dude...no comment.

I gotta read this over again when I smoke later.

Fuck dude...

 
 
Fri, 09/23/2011 - 9:06am
Shorty Says:
 
 
Fri, 09/23/2011 - 1:52pm

the way i look at it is this: we all have our beliefs (as do i), but when it comes down to basic fundamentals of what we know as our reality, we really dont know. it would be ignorant to simply not ponder the question of the afterlife. what is important is that you acknowledge it and think about it, but to not let it scare you or take over certain aspects of your life. all you have is now, so might as well make the best of it :) i also believe that if there isn't a spiritual afterlife like those we are conditioned to believe, then we will live on in the hearts and minds of those who were closest to us.

to clarify, im not saying that im right, this is just my current view on the issue (im sure my view will alter itself over time).

 
 
Fri, 09/23/2011 - 7:19pm
guitmig1 Says:

Thank you, just thank you. I spend hours thinking the same things, cool username too.

 
 
Fri, 09/23/2011 - 10:40pm

Your mind is the universe, We are here to keep the dream alive without the thought the dream would die. What you see is what you percieve as reality. DMT(Dimethyltryptamine) is the most powerful psychedelic known to man. Get this, it is illegal, but is found in plants and animals. Our pineal gland inside of our brain releases it every night when we go to sleep. So why is it illegal you ask?? Because it teaches you the truth. Look it up. Its a 5-10 minute trip, and its the most powerful thing you will ever experience. The side-effects and alien like beings, geometric patterns, and just straight up hyperspace. Your brain pumps out high doses of it during rem sleep and during near death experiences. So are we a dream within a dream? During your dreams your realitys are different, one day you can fly a helicopter another play the guitar. How do you know for sure that your dream isnt real when it feels like it is.?????

 
 
Sat, 09/24/2011 - 12:15am
Thc_snake Says:

fuck man my brains hurts. you know how much information i have just vacuumed up? but very good man. DMT will never not amaze me. ive been doing alot of reasearch as well.

 
 
Sat, 09/24/2011 - 12:12am
Thc_snake Says:

i think about this stuff in class. it never seizes to amaze me. iver also been researching about DMT. the door way possibly? idk.

 
 
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Sat, 09/24/2011 - 4:40pm
lilx95 Says:
 
 
Mon, 09/26/2011 - 6:33pm

But what is nothing? Nothing has to be something. Or is it like when you sleep, and you dont remember anything and wake up. oh my..that may be it.

 
 
Mon, 09/26/2011 - 4:23pm

This is the same concept that i was thinking for the past few weeks and was about to make a highdea about it. But im glad u did it because i could have never worded it that good. gave me chills reading it man.

 
 
Sun, 10/09/2011 - 6:57pm
Nigelvb Says:

You have managed to articulate my thoughts so well man, I've always pondered shit like this but could never really express it haha.

 
 
Sun, 06/10/2012 - 11:55pm
YumFood... Says:

I feel you man... I want to believe in afterlife but I also want to believe in a higher power.. I'm looking into Christianity and can't find any answers...