I need to get a better job to cover the bills.

I originally started smoking the herb to calm my PTSD I aquired from my 12 month deployment to Baghdad. It's the only thing that has helped. I have tried so many things but the herb is the only thing that has put my mind at ease. I have since then enjoyed the herb for recreational use but it still helps me medically.

But now me and my wife are trying to start a family and more bills mean I need a better job. This means they will test for Marijuana and deny me for pissing hot. I can and have stopped smoking for short ammounts of time but the only jobs I can find in my area that are sufficient to pay the bills require regular piss tests. Even though I live in Washington State where recreational use is legal that does not mean that jobs will still take you if you piss hot.

So I guess I'll have to sacrifice my sanity for the greater good of our new family we are starting. I hope it goes well because I have tried different prescriptions prescribed to me for my PTSD, I have tried therapy groups, private sessions, etc. but nothing has put my mind at ease as well as Cannabis.

Before Cannabis, I have tried commiting suicide twice and have had more panic attacks than I can count. God I hope it's worth it in the end, I just hope I have the strength to make it.

So I guess this is goodbye my fellow stoners (hopefully for now). Your presence has made life enjoyable.

Sorry if this is a downer, not my intentions, just didn't want to leave without saying farewell.

Anyways, smoke one or 5 for me and wish me luck. I have made many friends on here and no group has had so much enlightenment as you. Stay up as long as you can.

Don't worry about me, I have my wife and hopefully a bigger family soon to keep my mind at ease. It's not going to be an easy journey but I have been threw worse I suppose.

Stay up everyone! It's with a heavy heart that I say goodbye and good luck. (This is not a suicide note, I read it over and it sounds like it so like I said, don't worry about me, I'm well over that, suicide is NOT an option for me so don't worry, this to will pass.) It's been fun and it's been a journey within itself that I got to share with you all. As always, stay stoned friends! I got much love for you all!

Maybe one day society will accept our nonharmfull way of life.



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Fri, 09/11/2015 - 9:52am
Echo_ Says:

https://www.youtube.com/v/Uax_2mSHiYg?version=3&start=0&end=12&autoplay=0&hl=en_US&rel=0

Hang in there, bud. Best of luck to you in your future endeavors.

Can't wait to welcome you back someday.